WHAT’S WITH THE TITLE?

It may sound like a random title to you but it does have a meaning. After everything that happened with my family I wanted a distraction from things and got a Netflix account and begun watching the show “The Tudors”. At first I wasn’t thinking much of the show having first seen “The Other Boleyn Girl” but seeing things in a television show is very different from a movie. In a television series you have more time which allows for so much more drama and the chance to develop the characters more which caused me to see things differently (might have also been from the recent events in my life causing me to see it this way) but I felt so strongly for the character of Katherine. She loved her husband where he no longer loved her, going after Anne Boleyn instead.

Another thing that led me to the idea of the title was in one of my classes I kept writing about my father who I felt had abandoned our family for something that might not last. I hated him with such a passion and yet he still haunted my every thought. There were nights where I cried, where I wish I could yell at him or just finally say what I needed to say to him. I decided I needed to stop boring my teacher with the details of my personal problems and write them out and with my dream of becoming a novelist I decided to make it into a story giving it the title of “In Support of Spain”.

Wait, I thought you said novel?

Yeah, that was my original plan but I decided that I wanted people to be able to read it and decided to make it a blog so people could read my story and possible relate to what’s going on in my life. I don’t want anyone to think they’re alone in dealing with something like this.

WHAT IS THIS BLOG ABOUT?

This blog is about my experiences with a personal tragedy in our family. I say tragedy because at the time it was horrible and it still is. My father it seems over night decided he would rather be with my mother’s best friend instead of her and to experience that shock at the age of twenty is not fun. I obviously don’t know how badly my siblings feel about it and I only know what I’ve been told by the people around me about their own experiences.

ABOUT THE BLOGGER

So I’m a twenty-one year old college student hoping to get a degree in wildlife conservation. I’m technically morbidly obese and I accept that I can change this at any point in my life and have taken steps to do so. I don’t want to be thin, I want to be healthy and I have drastically improved my diet by eating more natural goods and have learned to prepare so many new dishes I would have never dared to try before.

I love animals and when I say that I mean I LOVE animals. I have three cats, nine bettas and two African dwarf frogs. I’ve always loved animals. When I was younger I used to bring home frogs, tadpoles, salamanders and even rescued a mole form a cats hungry jaws. For a while I even thought about becoming a veterinarian but I just could never bring myself around to the idea of actually putting an animal down. For me that’s unthinkable! Yes I have and would have an animal euthanized if it was in pain and I could do nothing to save it but I just couldn’t be the one to do it.

I like to think myself to be a very creative person. I love working with my hands to create something new. There’s just something about making an item and giving it to a person that makes me feel all warm inside. My current craft of choice is candle making but I’ve sown, gardened, made chocolates, ornaments, crocheted etc…

I love to write. Since I was little I’ve always loved books and writing. It wasn’t until I heard the first words of a tale written by Edgar Allen Poe did I ever really had the desire to write; Tales of horror and poems that frighten the imagination. He still remains an inspiration today and I would love to thank my middle school teacher for reading his tales to us. I can still picture myself drawing a red window with hands reaching up to it. Not that my drawings were ever good.

Music. Something I’ll always enjoy. From pop to rock to metal, I always enjoy to listen to music. For now my favorite bands are mostly not from the states, bands like Within Temptation, Kamelot, Nightwish, Epica, Evanescence, Breaking Benjamin, etc…

I am a daughter, a sister, a girlfriend, a friend, a mentor and a human being. I love myself as much as I love those around me.

DISCLAIMER

Now as you read this you might think members of my family (or my friends) are strange or evil depending on how you view people but they are people like everyone else. They make mistakes and do things they might not do otherwise. The wonderful thing about being human is that we do have the capacity to forgive each other despite how much they’re hurt us in the past.

I also support divorce; I think it should be kept as an option. Some people grow apart and it’s only natural. But I do believe strongly that people should work together to try and work out their issues and use divorce as a last resort. Who knows what opportunities you might miss out on just by giving up on something that used to be good?

I love my father and my mother. I am closer to my mother than I am my father but that’s because my mother and I have always been close. I tell her almost everything in my life and she tells me more than I ever wanted to hear. I have daddy issues and through writing this blog I hope that I can help myself and anyone else who may be experiencing similar issues or perhaps going through the same thing.

Thank you for stopping by and reading my blog and I hope you can find some enjoyment from it.